Losing sleep and cinders

I'm losing to much sleep nowadays. Keep staying awake till I'm ready to write and paint. About whats going on, a boiling point for me seems to be set around 1 am everyday. It's when my best and my worst seems to meet to form with what I wish to tell the world. So what is my message has anyone figured it out yet...

Maybe a hint will clue you in. Look in the mirror and ask yourself why. Once you have a answer come back and find what your looking for again. You don't have to enjoy this ride. I'm pretty sure if you have, then you're not been really a person at all. Monster. Aren't we all? Aren't we all breathtaking. I'm still holding mine. Comedy sheer comedy.

Tragedy is the name with a plan of death, a blueprint of destruction, and a way to get past the simple pleasures of man. Take what you will. Take it all. I don't need nothing, I need more.

Never having too much or too little, this is me. Never can you have too much, never will you not have too little. No matter how good it gets it's never gonna be good enough. Let me borrow a crowbar to open some eyes and it's over in a blink of the eye. Take it for granted and you'll find out the hard way it's not. I laugh at me.

Sit back and watch everything crumbles beneath our feet. Don't that sum up everything quite nicely. All you can do is watch as everything disappears.... Sometimes though you add to the destruction, why not? Make everything go away all that quicker does it not. Look I'm underneath your gun, telling me to act right or you'll hurt me and I'm not the only one, but I'll be the strongest. I've seen the end and it's a pretty sight, like looking at a picture of you burning, nice and warm, such a beautiful smile. What are you thinking of right now? I'll give myself some space no answer.

You have this thought to yourself now. Keep in mind to keep it in mind. Which way to go, without direction. Just wandering again. So one word answers. Makes me wonder. One word can give more meaning than a story. What do you mean when you say one word to me? Is it something I should comprehend? Something I should know in advance? Something I should never think to question? ..... or maybe it's just a lack of words to say. With a mind like yours I would expect the least, I can see an ocean of thoughts mixing and churning, shouldn't you spill them out? Drown me in what you have to say, I would enjoy each second. Won't be the first time it left me breathless.

Some burn bridges faster than they can build them back. Boot stomped fields line each side of this road. Can't turn back now...this is just the start of the battle where we haven't even got to see the front yet. This is weak. So wake up and meet the sun with a smile, always smile, a face that don't need a frown. 

Don't take my words as just that. Proliferation.... Something I need. Take these away from me, instead of putting more in my head.... Just the way it goes I guess, some never learn.

I couldn't look you in the eyes and I've tried. You leveled me. Take a step back and look around. Step outside yourself and see what you see. You better be smiling.