Stomach's in knots, Heart's pounding....

How could anyone fall head over heels for someone you meet or somone you have known as a stranger for a long time. Strength is what I am trying to harness for my work, and possible new ways of living- but so is procrastination. There are vital choices in life that you know will make an extraodinary difference. And every choice you make is not others, but your own. Who doesn't know this, I hope you do? No one can make you do the final actions, only yourself so when it comes to making desicions that are big in life...I get a little too much thinking going on, perhaps should just go with the flow and know that things will be - as it is.

Life should be good, and if things aren't the way they seem to be, there is always a way to change it for the better. Lately I have been making bold moves, I've always been the gutsy they said. But as you know now which you may have never known before. You are who you are today based on your desicions made from the past. So are you happy or not? Because the future results are based on the newest thoughts and choices you make today and thereforth, so isn't there countless ways to change the course of life? I am always open to recieving it. Whether it be for love, career or simple everyday living. When you start to make changes for the better, life feels like a challenge you may not want to deal with due to laziness and being out of the comfort zone. But the outcome and rewards from overcoming the little obstacles that are thrown to you, is strength to keep that constant drive of faith within yourself to become closer to happiness, dreams and goals.

When you realize your own fulfillment in doing that, regardless of who may step into your life. People who may be nice, unkind or dislike you would still be inevitable to you, because deep down inside you know your happiness is from within, and so what would happen is that you would and most likely end up giving that unconditional love and support for all who enters your life at the moment, with blessings and best wishes for those individuals. Regardless if their wishes are the same for you or to merely shove you from behind and taunt you. I always tell myself that my desicions are mine alone, no one can make me turn and give unkindess in return or love against my will. So from all that I have just said, I have no resents in my life's events, or desicions I made. Being responsible for my own actions is what made me who I am today... Others whom does give a chance or time of day, not to metion those that are just straight up to jugdment, what a life, they must have had, well not to give the sad story, others have very difficult past to live with too, and they've make the worst part of them run there lives to unhappiness.

The sun will always shine, the good things and bad things will always happen. So I asked could you give up part of our happiness or most of it, for someone else's happiness? If yes why. If no then what would be your happiness?