"What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger."

I always tell that to myself, with that being said, and with my "wonderful" experiences, one may think me to be fairly strong by now... strong... or stupid. Either way, it seems, there is still so much to be learned.

We always find ourselves in "situation" sitting with Confusion once and perhaps too many times again. Though it seems like you hated his company, but you always answer the door when he calls. So now, you sit at a crossroads...accompanied by Confusion... waiting.. all the while trying to decide which path to take... the choice of two decisions before you as i can see it:

A: stay - take what you can, do what you can, embrace all the good from the situation that you are capable, hope for a better tomorrow

B: walk away - run, look for happiness elsewhere, try to distance yourself from the situation, hope for a better tomorrow

Hopefully you can get rid of him before he invites his friends for another party... which will, as usual, take you much effort to clean up after... alone.

Both will bring Pain and that is what gave Confusion the reason for being here with you, to taunt you... to allow the insanity to take control. You know that you need to make a decision and stick with it and accept the consequences, savor the flavor of your behavior. You need to be strong. But you are not so sure where the weakness lies... are you weak for staying, because you are unable or not willing to leave what seems to be causing yourself in this pain... or is it weakness to walk/run away, because you are unable to handle the situation itself.

Perhaps it just comes down to acceptance... perhaps that is where the strength lies... to accept the situation as it truly is... to make a decision respecting yourself, and accepting responsibility for the actions taken to achieve the sought after goal. 

The goal??

Truth, Love and Happiness - Peace.