You brought tears to her eyes today.

You did, yet again. Wonder how it feels to be the only person to have ever made her heart cry? Her heart, not just once mind you. If you look back, do realize that nobody took her away...her hand never slipped from your grasp and that wasn't how it went down. You looked away for so long and when you looked back, you were someone she didnt recognize. So she was supposed to feel pity for you who lost her during your long fiesta of greed? Save your musician sympathy and find some better believer. You know it feels great sometimes, just thinking of you and of all the worse that could have happen. Sometimes you can only rebuild the span you've destroyed so many times over untill it is not rebuildable...don't need your matches, there doesn't have to be any fires, don't want to spark a blaze if it means it's going to consume you.

You think she is arrogant, stubborn, crude, distant, emotionless, senseless;  All of these words you could easily use to describe her now with your uncreative mindset which is only capable of forming such lame opinions, and to be honest easing your ego, you'd be completely right. Is this what you want for her to shut her world off once again just like she did before she met you? She would and now you've got it.

There's no real reason why this was being written, simply put, my heart told me to just type and type as I did after the day had been totally destroyed by a simple phone call. Starting to imagine that it is very hard to give someone everything you ever possibly could and have them not even fake a smile of gratitude, the pain is excruciating to say the least.

Am you not fulfilled that she'd turn her back and leave it, as not how she've found it? Like a rose bush, do you let it just grow and don't attend to it. Or would you like the best aroma, color, healthy growing roses to display and enjoy the beauty, scent and gratification. Awh.... the choices in life is too complicated i say? Let it grow however it goes. No effort just wanting and waiting for a rose to bud and bloom for this.

She'd pleaded and begged for you to stop...to stop and to stop... I guess i'll end here, there's really nothing else to say because you had brought tears to her eyes today and you shouldn't have, you really shouldn't have. Truly tried, truly loved, and truly failed. Thus is the struggle the heart faces every single day. 

Now she hope it rains, and she'll walk in it so nobody can see her cry.