All the sunsets and sunrises...

So wow, it is really six months gone for good! I can't believe this is moving so fast, last year is still so vivid that it feels like yesterday. As I look back and reflect I can't help but be proud of where I am, where I have come from, and where I am going. Where am I going?

I have changed more over past six months then I have in the previous years combined. I don't think I realized just how much I had lost myself. We get to this point when we have so much to do that we just think of ways to get things done. We become living machines till one day we wake up and think holly frig, how did I get here? This year I found myself waking up in my own life realizing that I hadn't really been living it. Merely day to day, week to week. It is important to be ambitious, and to work towards goals but I was living in the future so much, trying to get everything where I wanted it, that I forgot to live in the present and life went on. I am glad that sometime this year I finally found myself.

When him and I had closed the final chapter of that 'grey' relationship, I remember thinking I needed to find someone, who would provide that thing, that missing link so to speak. Like a movie, my toad would just show up and wow, love and all that disgusting garbage. But instead, I came to realize, I wasn't looking for someone else to fullfill that void, I was looking for myself. And I mean, it is one thing to understand that, but another to experience it. To be so lost that you forget to live. It's like waking up from a dream. Over the last twelve months had been insaned. I have grown so much, and watched the people around me grow actually, no. Some stood still. I became closure to friends I have had, but I've also met new amazing people. The world is truely an amazing and beautiful place, when you take the time to look at it.