It is some things I just cannot wrap my head around.

Endless pieces in an endless puzzle each in endless combinations of ever-changing shapes with ever-changing structural components and i just cannot wrap my head around any of my plausible reasons for pining to live out this fantasy based romantic disney-movie-closing-scene of an existence. That i feel like i want so badly for myself. Especially when the better part of the evidence i've taken in over time certainly stacks the odds up heavily against things ending up the way I hope for them to. And again, especially when I don't even feel like i've got myself figured out completely. No one does though. Some are just better at pretending, acting and accepting than others are. Or call it personal failure to admit powerlessness and total lack of control... and here i go again not making so much sense. The only thing i am absolutely certain of is that many of the questions i have will never be able to be answered for me. I suppose i just need to try to figure out the best pathway from where i stand here.

I know you like I know myself.