A Sudden Blur.

The events of the past month or so have all be compiled into a blur, the events utterly changes life, the experiences that I have faced are more than I can even start to understand. Some events leading to this day will always remain in my memory for years to come with every waking moment, this is still, the me.

Now I do not even remotely understand this "BLUR", happy moments, sad, love, fear, tired, and neutral. I just want to walk away from everything and start a new clean slate. But such as life is that will not ever happen, most will say pick you head up and walk above the issue, but the issue isn't all bad, some of the moments have been love, and fun though all great moments but have been torn into a chaotic confusion. You know how when things are flowing well and suddenly a one thing could triggered and surface a kind of fear from a past. Sucks! You just want to drop all and run then you're begining to feel like you've lost someone.

The responsibility of my actions will affect me. Sure I would think of what would happen if I take this shot, or if I fall down this stair, but This "BLUR" has taken more of an impact and made me realize that sometimes it is crap. Yesterday after spending much time on an art piece, I lost that inspiration to continue with frustration, I wanted to go crawl into a corner and melt so i ended up writing. This my friend is the "BLUR" which decays me. It takes all theses stresses, mistakes and good moments and compiles them into one giant fog that invades my head.

There are so many smaller events that haven't even hit, me.. and now all I can do is await this day, but see that day is soon, I can feel the anxiety build the fateful "BLUR". You have made me ill.