There has to be more, and I got to take care of it....

I'm flustered. I am trying so hard to balance being a me and find somehow somewhere how to fit personal, intimate happiness into the mix. I don't know how other others do it. I am so burned out, maybe its just that its been going on for so long now that I have become accustomed to doing it all and not paying attention to my personal needs.

I have taken a step back and re-evaluated myself, my life and what I want. I want to work, be with someone, and be a friend; how do I manage to keep those all up in the air without losing some sacred part of me. I don't know what to do. Perhaps the need to simplify my life, cut all extraneous stuff and just be for a bit. I can't even do that!!! There are so many demands of my time and resources that I am absolutely spent.

I need a release, somewhere to fall, I know what I'm missing, I need to talk, I need to cry, I need to be held (emotionally works too) and just be a woman for a little while.