People leave.

So. It's been forever since I've written anything good. Life is full of things that takes up time and then everytime you turn around... it has been days, weeks, months, year or and years. The life/ people that you once knew are now forgotten they forget you and move on. I wonder if having a better life gives me more time to analyze little things that will go wrong... and they can make me just as upset. Well, I'm only human; woman. But seriously, do you think that pain and suffering must be a part of our lives? I mean are there levels of happiness and saddness or just waves of the chemical happy/ sad?... Or simply that it is just part of our lives. I believe that in the absence of things that make us happy/ sad... we would find new things to be happy or sad about. So even if you solved all your problems right now and as soon as they're gone you will have new ones. In retrospect if something makes you happy and you loose it, you will probably find something/ someone who makes you just as happy- maybe. Can you be more sad than someone? Can you really be more happy than someone? Probably... Not sure of what am I'm rambling about tonight... just debating this notion, then again I may be wrong.

Speaking of sadness, I attended a birthday party last Friday... didn't expect it to be such a big crowd but it was- big. There are people whom I no longer hang out with, grown apart with and those whom I no longer talk to. Weird mix. It seems that people go from person to person... click to click most of the time... dissapearing into different social circles.... And you think you know people. I was wrong, he was right. That is sad. Little matters. No It doesn't matter. What matters would always be those whom were no longer around, always at the back of my mind, always a part of me.

So... been hanging out in the good life lately... yes and mystic meanings aside long story short I believe it can only be for the better. I have been good. Can't complain.